Monday, December 29, 2008

Little black dress

Tired of those same old 55 questions about me surveys?Well here are 55 I guarantee you've never answered.

1. Are you taller than your best friend?
Yes. thank god for that

2. Do you have a favorite type of pen?
yes, I do. Papermate Capped Ball Point pens for Writing. And for drawing, well there's a list.

3. Look at your planner for December 15, what are you doing?
I have no clue actually, that already passed.
4. What color are your toenails usually?
Unpainted. Toenail coloured?

5. What was the last thing you highlighted?
I was painting some eyes in Photoshop. I highlighted them. Well, I painted on some highlights.

6. What color are the curtains in your bedroom?
Grey-ish green

7. What color is your room?

8. Have you ever had a black and white cat?

9. What was the last thing you put a stamp on?
The 438o27497123697 letters that my parents had me stick stamps on. I had to wash my tongue after all that licking.

10. Do you know anyone who lives in Wyoming?
um no. I'm not entirely sure I'd be able to show you where Wyoming is on the map

11. Why did you withdraw cash from the ATM the last time?
I've never used one of those things, but i want to!

Who was the last baby you held?
My brother? Man that was long time ago.

14. Do you like Cinnamon toothpaste?
Ew no.

16. Pick one: Miami Hurricanes or Florida Gators?
Hooray for Miami?

17. Last time you went to Six Flags?
what in the hell is that?

18. Do you have any wallpaper in your house?
not anymore :D

19. Closest thing to you that is yellow?
A Prismacolour marker

20. Last person you gave a business card?
My dad LOL

21. Who was the last person you wrote a check or money order to?
I don't write checks D:

22. Closest framed picture to you?
A picture of me, my brother, my two cousins, and my grandparents in 2000

23. Last time you cooked/baked something.
For the TKD party (baking) this morning for just cooking.

24. Have you ever felt you weren’t good enough?
Psh. of course

25. How many emails do you get in your inbox daily (excluding spam)?
somewhere between 2 and 5

26. Last time you received flowers?
Long long time ago.

28. Do you play air guitar?
I play a real guitar. That's somewhat cooler :)

29. Has anyone ever proposed to you?
not for real, but yes.

30. Do you take anything in your coffee?
hahahahah me and coffee is a destructive combination.

31. Do you have any willow tree figurines?

32. What was your school's mascot?
um before it was sabers, now we're the panthers.

33. Last person you spoke to from school?

34. Last time you used hand sanitizer?
um I hate that stuff. Soap FTW.

35. Would you like to learn to play the drums?

36. What color are the blinds in your living room?
off-white. creamish.

38. Last thing you read in the newspaper?

39. What was the last pageant or play you attended?
Cabaret I think.

40. What is the last place you bought pizza from?
Pizza Pizza

41. Have you ever worn a crown?
yes, yes I have

42. What is the last thing you stapled?
My careers assignment

43. Did you ever drink clear Pepsi?
...........that exists????

44. Are you ticklish?

45. Last time you saw fireworks?
Canada Day

46. Last time you had a Krispy Kreme doughnut?
2 years ago or so?

47. Who is the last person that left you a message & you actually returned?

49. Do you have a black dog?

50. Can you give one reason why David Caruso is allowed to keep acting?
who in the hell is that?

51. Are you an aunt or uncle?

52. What color is your crush's eyes?
blue-gray. :)

53. Last time you saw a semi truck?
wtf is a semi truck?

54. Do you remember Ugly Kid Joe?

55. Do you have a little black dress?
nope. I don't own a dress, little or black.

Friday, December 12, 2008


1. are you single? - yes
2. are you happy? - very very much so.
3. are you bored? - NOPE.
4. are you Italian? - no
5. are you pregnant? - um no, unless you ask Sara
6. are you Irish? - nope
7. are you nice? - I'd like to think so
8. are you Asian? - Well no, but Pat has this theory going on.
9. are you sober? - yes I am
10. are you cold? - A bit yes.

1. full name: Olena Lishchenko
2. nicknames: Lenny, Oli, Olenny, Lenna, LenLish, Lish, Ravioli, Lennard etc.
3. birthplace: Kiev
4. haircolour: brown
5. natural hairstyle: stick straight?
6. birthday: July 8th
7. facebook mood? um I can't remember what I set it to but it SHOULD be "HYPER-TASTICALLY HAPPY :D"
8. favourite colour: blue and green
9. one place to visit: DEUTSCHLAND. ja.
10. where are you going to be in an hour? sleeping

1. have you ever been in love? I don't think so
2. do you believe in love at first sight? no
3. have you ever been hurt emotionally? yeah
4. have you ever broken someones heart? I sure hope not
5. have you ever had your heart broken? yes
6. have you ever liked someone and never told them? yes. story of my life.
7. are you afraid of commitment? nope
8. who was the last person you hugged? Amy
9. who was the last person who kissed you? hmm. that's confidential information ;)
10. who was the last person who made you cry? um one of my good friends.

1. love or lust? Love.
2. hard liquor or beer? Liquor. I hate beer. bleh.
3. cats or dogs? cats
4. a few best friends or many regular friends? a few best friends, but both would be great
5. television or internet? Internet
6. wild night out or romantic night in? either/or
7. money or happiness? happiness
8. day or night? night
9. IM or phone? IM
10. hamburgers or fries? Fries.

1. been caught sneaking out? nope
2. have you ever gone skinny dipping? um......yes.
3. done something you regret? who hasn't?
4. bungee jumped? OH GOD I WANT TO.
5. lied to someone you like? yeah. but not to the person I like currently
7. slept in the same bed with someone from the opposite gender? yep
8. ever been drunk: no
9. wanted to disappear? yes
10. cried from laughing so hard? yep

1. smile or eyes? Smile, but thankfully he has both :3
2. light or dark hair? I prefer dark
3. hugs or kisses? hmmmmm both please :)
4. shorter or taller? Taller.
5. intelligence or attraction? both.
6. romantic or spontaneous? both :3
7. funny or serious? Funny, but serious when he needs to be
8. skinny or fat? ugh neither. athletic, but not too muscle-y. Like a swimmer :D
9. outgoing or quiet? Outgoing I guess. counterbalance me :)
10. sweet or bad ass? Both. omg. yes. <3

1. ever performed in front of a large crowd? yep
3. ever been pregnant? and not for a long time.
4. ever kissed the same gender? no
5. ever been on a cheerleading team? HELL NO.
6. ever been on a dance team? sadly, yes.
7. ever been on a sports team? yep
8. ever been in a drama/play production? yep
9. ever owned a hummer, BMW or Escalade? I can't drive O_O;
10. ever been in a rap video? never have and never will be.

1. last phone call you made? Daaaaaad
2. last person you kissed? *ahem*
3. last person you hung out with? Amy
4. last time you worked? um never?
6. last person you IM'd? Sinthu
7. last person you texted? Eggy
8. last person / thing you miss? um. him :)
9. last person you fought with? My mom.
10. last person you slept with? um NOBODY. not a whore k thnx.

Monday, December 8, 2008

quizzy quizzy

Has someone ever told you they would be with you forever?
- LOL. yeah. the funniest one actually was when I asked, "So how long are you going to be here?" they answered "Forever" and a part of me now thinks that I'd like 'here' to mean 'in my heart'

Do you sleep with the door closed or open?
- Closed. I go crazy when it isn't.

Do you know any mechanical stuff about cars?
- Nope.

Whats the greatest thing that happened to you today?
- Talking to Amy about last Friday, blushing because I remembered one hug, and finally convincing myself that I'm not effing crazy.

How many true friends do you have that you can tell anything to?
- ummmmm a few really. I'd say about 10-ish?

Tell me about the shirt your wearing?
- it's a black turtleneck designed for men, and I do not have the shoulders to fill it out.

Are you close with your mother?
- yeah

How many kids do you want?
- 2. Let them suffer as I suffered.

What was the first thing you thought this morning?
- It's a Monday~ I have to get up -__-"

Do you still talk to the first person you kissed?
- nope. I have no idea where he is anyway XDD

Are you Irish in any way?
- Nope

Where did you sleep last?
- In my lover's arms. IN MY BED. ALONE. YOU SICK FREAKS.

Would you ever want to swim with the sharks?
- which sharks specifically? Not really.

Did you speak to your father today?
- yes I did.

How did you wake up this morning?
- to Pink's "So What" blaring on the radio

Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?
- no I love my Amy. :3 Even though technically I'm her bitch.

Honestly, do you like anybody?
- Honestly, yes. ;)

Does anyone call your home phone for you anymore?
- yeah you get the occasional "Is Olena there?"

What do you want for your next birthday?
- Him. LOL I'm kidding.

What person annoys you the most?
- Hannah Montana

Would you rather your lover have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile?
- with any luck, for who I have in mind, he has both.

Have you ever kissed anyone with a name that starts with D or Z?

Have you ever broken someones heart?
- yeah, Nick's yesterday XD and unfortunately, in the not joking sense, I probably broke someone's heart.

Could you ever be friends again with someone that broke your heart?
- I'd try to, but it would be hell.

Do you hate anyone?
- no not really

Ever kissed underwater?
- No, that sounds difficult.

Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?

Do you miss your past?
- sometimes. but not at the moment.

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
- 8 1/2

Are you texting anybody?
- yep. Replying to Eggy

How tall was the last person you hugged?
- uuuuuuuh about 5'4" LOL. I need to find a tall teddy bear.

Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke?
- no, I can't drive. I can't pull over either.

Where were you at 9 am this morning?
- Math class

Do you miss anyone?
- I don't MISS as much as I kinda wish that I'd get to see them today

Are you listening to music right now?
- yeeeeeeeep as always

When is the last time you cried?
- when I was 11 or 12.

What is your favorite memory?
- My god I have so many.

Do you want to fight someone?
- no not really, but bet you money that at least Jun is going to get whacked over the head today.

Hows your hair today?
- Clean, soft and shiny. LOL. I have nice hair. I'm allowed one vanity.

When was the last time you were really confused?
- Math class. stupid parabola.

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
- the kind of nervous butterflies that you get right before exams? yeah. before an exam. I'm just not going to talk to anyone that entire week.

What color are your nails?
- The colour God intended them to be.

Do you wish someone was with you right now?
- Yessir I do ♥

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Can't wait till Wednesday

Just some stuff that I've been working on as of late in media arts, and am not working on at the moment since I left my tablet at home :(
I'll suffer one day in media arts instead of dragging home my backpack, my swim bag, AND my tablet in a box on the public transit. 
The weather is cold and depressing, and I'm starving and tired.  

I CAN NOT wait until wednesday. 
For one, it's a half day, and for the other, i get to see ;D again. 

TKD was remarkably easy yesterday, and I have no idea if I'm going to end up going to the tournament or not D:
It's tempting, but I don't want to go alone. 
Am I willing to get my ass kicked for experience? 
I don't know.

I kind of want to go just to watch the first time, to see how it's done. 
But yeah, I guess I'll have to think about it,

Peace Out,


Saturday, November 22, 2008

another stupid quiz XDD

1. Male Friend: Alex
2. Female Friend: I have many
3. Memory: Tokio Hotel concert, yesterday, actually I have a lot.

1. Time of day: the morning
2. Day of the week: monday
3. Food: eggplant (no offence paul)
4. Memory: hmmm what was it, a few days before grade 10 started?

1. Person you saw: my dad
2. Talked to on the phone: my dad
3. Text: Nick
4. Messaged over MySpace? Eggplant

1. What are you doing right now? answering this and talking on MSN, as well as drawing a picture!
2. Wearing? sweatpants, black turtleneck, and a sweater.
3. Better than yesterday? NO FREAKING WAY. Yesterday was EPICCCCCC.
4. Did you see the person you like? Not today.
5. What’s the weather? cold and sunny-ish.

1. Is: sunday
2. Got any plans? nope
3. Dislikes about tomorrow: uhm the next day is school

1. Number: 7 and 18.
2. Song: (as of right now) Fell in Love without you- Motion City Soundtrack
3. Season: summer to fall
4. Cartoon: avatar the last airbender.

1. Missing someone: nope. I've had my fill.
2. Mood: content
3. Wanting: chocolate.
4. Listening to: Sweet Religion: Imogen Heap

True or False
I am a morning person: F
I am an only child: F
I am currently in my PJ’s: F
I am currently suffering from a broken heart: F
I currently regret something that I have done: F
I curse frequently: T
I enjoy country music: rarely
I enjoy hip hop: depends. apparently DBSK is hip hop. and I mildly enjoy their music.
I enjoy techno/trance: T
I enjoy talking on the phone: depends with who
I have a hidden talent: LOL I'm not sure it counts as a talent.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal: uhm....heheheheheheh I wouldn't say ashamed.... just mortified.
I have all my grandparents: T
I have at least one brother and/or sister: T
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor: T
I have changed a diaper: F
I have changed a lot over the past year: T
I have done something illegal: T
I have had major/minor surgery: T
I have had my hair cut within the last 2 months: F
I have had the cops called on me: F
Single or Taken: single and how is this a true & false question?
Eye color: brown
Hair: brown
Height: 172 cm.
Righty or lefty: righty
Can you make a dollar in change right now? if i can find my wallet, then I probably could.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

(the potential to be) the greatest day ever

Here's a random screencap of Alex's and mine webcast type thing that we tend to do in media arts (I typed math there at first and I'm not sure why. I must be tired)

Yesterday was like the greatest day in the past month.
First of all the swim meet was yesterday, my school was hosting, so we were on home turf. And had the advantage. My god it was crazy
I did 5 events. I'm insane.
- 200m Medley Relay (swam freestyle)
- 50m Freestyle (43 seconds -_-) 
- 50m Butterfly (ABSOLUTE FAIL. Not even telling you my time for this)
- 200m Freestyle Relay (one of our worst times as of yet, but I blame the niners)
- 100m Freestyle

For my 100m Freestyle, I was SO HAPPY. 
It was my last event, and I felt kind of sick, and I was focused more on finishing it, not on actually winning.
My start was good, so I was proud of myself, and I started off at warm-up speed, just kind in a state of nirvana, since this is my favourite event.
on the way back to the wall, after the first 25m I noticed that I was ahead of two people, so I'm like, "Okay, you know what, I'm going to try".
I managed to do okay on my first two flip turns, and then for my last one, IT WAS AMAZING. For me anyways. My flip turns have always been more like an act of dumb luck than actual skill.
but for my last 25m, I like SHOT off of the wall. 
and passed two people last second and made it in 3rd place!!
Out of the 8 people that were in my heat. 

I went from a 1:42 to a 1:37!!!


And TKD was easy, since it snowed for the first time yesterday, i guess most people didn't bother to show up. 
There were a grand total of five of us. 
And we did like.....half a pyramid not even, and we sparred for the rest of the day. I guess that was fun, except for the last fight wasn't even a fight, I lost so badly D:>

And I get the feeling that he wasn't even trying. 
which is just depressing. 

So I can still talk even though I spent most of yesterday yelling,
And I am not sore! Only 3 new bruises!

Hooray :)

Peace Out,


Monday, November 17, 2008

BCM not quite update.

Halloween costumes for Mai, Alex, Natasha, Mo and Katie.
Natasha in a bathing suit (sans swim cap xDD), Sarah looking cuter than usual, Mo from the back, some random Alex expressions, the second one looking girlier and far too annoyed for his personality. 
Oh how I love you Alex~~ Impossible to pronounce last name and all. 
Here's to more BCM doodles while my actual comic goes not updated. 
And that's just depressing to everyone, especially me. Seeing as I do not have much of a following regarding this comic, that's alright. 
I have realized that I like drawing legs. 
And that just sounds creepy no matter how I word it. 

I feel kind of sick, in a nauseous kind of way, and I occasionally feel a stabbing pain as though someone gouged a knife into my ribs. 
And trust me, that is not fun. 
At all. 

On the bright side, TKD today!
All I have to do is suffer through school for a bit, and everything will be right again. 
Painful, but right. 
Apparently all of this week we're focusing on flexibility. *cries in a corner* Dude that is so not fun. AT ALL .

Yesterday was somewhat of an off day for me, all things considered. 
I got to sleep in as long as I wanted, and I was all warm and cozy and nice, but I inevitably woke up.
And my mom tells me that my grandpa got out of the hospital yesterday, and apparently, he's been there for the past month. 
You have no idea how pissed I was. 
I was angry at the whole world and everyone who inhabits it, decided that I was a pretty shitty human being and the like, and pretty much stayed an angsty emo kid all day. 
and as Stacey so aptly said, "Lenna wth is up with you?"

And to tell you the truth, I don't know. 
More people know about *ahem* ;D (using Stacey's code name here) than i would have initially liked, and I don't think Am's gonna let me forget about it any time soon ;A;

I am updating my blog in media arts instead of actually working on a ghey Mardi Gras poster that the teacher wants us yo do if we're done. 
If it's not being marked, i won't be doing it >.<


so yeah. 
Hope I arrive alive enough to blog tomorrow,

Peace Out,


Sunday, November 16, 2008

quiz time. personality.

Some doodles I did at TKD a few weeks back, not very successful because EVERYONE KEPT MOVING.
Here's a personality quiz to keep you guys occupied.

Instructions: Put an 'x' in the box next to the statements you agree with.
[x] I have A LOT of friends.
[ ] I go to parties often.
[x] I love to talk.
[x (I guess so)] I am generally happy
[ ] I go out more often than I stay home.
[x] People sometimes call me crazy.
[ ] my favourite past times include shopping, talking on the phone or computer and hanging out with friends.
[x] I actually like going to school.
[ ] I wish I was famous!
[x] I love meeting new people.
Total: 6

[ ] I don't like school or social gatherings.
[ ] I never go to dances, parties, etc.
[ ] I don't have that many friends, only a few close ones.
[x] People have said I'm shy.
[ ] I don't talk a lot.
[x] I like to sit in my room alone all day. (I don't LIKE to, but I end up doing so anyway)
[x] My favourite pasttimes include going on the computer, reading and sleeping.
[x] I have never had a boyfriend. (freaking hell this quiz is depressing)
[x] I wear somewhat "conservative" clothing, I don't follow trends.
[ ] I don't have more than one of these: MSN, AIM, Xanga, Myspace.
Total: 5

[x] I like to wear all black.
[ ] I don't have many friends, in fact, I don't really like people.
[ ] I talk behind people's backs.
[ ] I think about suicide/death a lot.
[ ] I listen to hardcore punk rock and nothing else.
[x] I wish people would just leave me alone! (sometimes)
[ ] I don't get along with my family.
[ ] I rather die than be friends with a cheerleader or someone popular.
[ ] I have had a lot of fights with people this year.
[ ] People don't really want to be my friend.
Total: 2

[x] I have good friends that I can share anything with.
[ ] People come up to me all the time, wanting to be my friend.
[ ] I guess you could call me popular.
[ ] I do my homework and always study for tests.
[ ] I don't swear. (nope, I cuss like a sailor occasionally)
[ ] I never break the law.
[x] I don't smoke, drink, or do drugs.
[x] I love people, animals and nature.
[x] I think the world would be a much better place if everyone was just nice to each other! (not exactly, but close enough)
[ ] I am NOT a hater. (I hate Disney channel whores)
Total: 4

[x] I study REALLY hard for tests.
[x] My grades are very important to me, not just my parents.
[x] I go to school to LEARN, not socialize with my friends.
[x] I am focused on what I need to do.
[x] I don't party, drink/smoke, or act wild with friends.
[ ] I don't seem to laugh very often.
[x] People tell me I should be more calm sometimes and worry less.
[x]I am stressed out often.
[ ] I already know what I wanna be in the future, and how I'm gonna get there.
[ ] I have a job.
Total: 7

Fun/laid back
[x] I like to have fun with my friends!
[ ] I don't worry too much.
[ ] I never get stressed.
[x] Stuff seems to come easy to me.
[x] My life is just chill.
[ ] If something goes wrong, I don't freak out, I just handle it in a calm way.
[x] People come to me for advice.
[x] I have a lot of friends because I know how to have a good time!
[x] I consider myself very social.
[x] Life is short, live it to the fullest!
Total: 7

[ ] I laugh ALL the time.
[] I ALWAYS cry when I laugh hard!
[x] My friends always come to me when they need to be cheered up.
[x] I have a lot of jokes to tell.
[x] I like watching comedies and funny TV shows.
[x] A lot of people have told me that I am funny.
[x] With me, you will always have a good laugh!
[X] A sense of humor is most important in a guy.
[x]I don't cry often.
[ ] I am an optimist.
Total: 7

[ ] I cry a lot.
[x] I listen to sad music mostly.
[ ] My friends always ask me 'what's wrong'.
[x] I think people don't understand me.
[x] I seem to spend a lot of time alone.
[ ] I don't have a boyfriend, a best friend, or any close family members.
[ ] I take some sort of medication for depression.
[ ] I never seem to have fun anymore.
[ ] I am HIGHLY sensitive.
[ ] Sometimes, I wish I could die.
Total: 3

The category with the most x's is your most dominant personality trait . If you have a tie between two or more, that's great! You have different sides to your personality.Now post your personality(s) here:I am:

Fun/Laid Back
Peace Out,

Friday, November 14, 2008


Well the media arts project is over, so like yaaaaaaaaaaaay?


I thought I'd drop dead before I got to the weekend. 
So I just finished writing the math test, and I think I did okay.  
In a strange "I probably failed regardless of the fact that I tried to study" type of way. I'm joking of course, I doubt I'd actually fail, considering how much of a nerd I really am. 
Yesterday, my parents dropped me off at TKD early. so I took my math review sheets with me to check if I actually know anything.
Most of the adults were there yesterday, and although I knew they meant well, they were no help at all when it came to multi-stage factoring.
Master Park of course insisted that he could do this in his sleep, and well lucky him. 
Doesn't he feel special D:<
And my god, I mean, I knew CJ was a stunt person for a while, but she has her own demo reel on youtube!

And that's like wow.

I was lying on my stomach for like a good half hour, got stepped on twice, made someone trip, stabbed myself with my pencil accidentally, and threw my pencil at Jun. But hey, he stepped on me. 
He was so asking for it.

We finished class a few minutes early, so I was talking to Jun and Sinthu about well random crap as per usual.  

In other news,
My abstract painting looks horrible, but I guess that it's abstract and that's what counts.
We're not even allowed to do something like "USE COLOUR TO MAKE AN AWESOME-TASTIC ACRYLIC PAINTING ABOUT YOU FEEL ABOUT CHEESE". It has to be an abstract representation of something
So I'm abstracting a surrealism-type marker drawing that I made a few weeks ago.

I missed the deadline for our juried art show at school because I'm a lazy bum..
oh well. 
There's always next year?

Happy (slightly belated) Birthday Olivia~!

Peace Out,


Sunday, November 9, 2008


hahahahah you'd think that I would spend more time talking about TKD when it's pretty much taken over my life lately.
So lately Wednesdays and Fridays are hell on earth.
Death by Cardio
Whatever you'd like to call it really.

This one kid in my class, (not mentioning names in case they decide to drop by my blog) MY GOD HE IS DRIVING ME UP THE WALL WITH HIS "COOLER THAN THOU" ATTITUDE.
but he so got what was coming to him this Wednesday I think it was? It might have been last week. But that made my life. seriously.

After this Friday we did so many squats that I felt my knees give out. It made me feel old.

And when you feel 60 years old when you're a teenager, that can never lead to any good.

I want to upload this epically awesome video that me and Alex made in Media arts (more like a webcast really) but Blogger won't let me, and that makes me sad XD
But on the bright side, the fact that the Imac monitor has a built in webcam, that is so epic awesome on so many levels. So my violent hate for macs has become somewhat less violent.

I am officially terrified of stretching.
Friday's stretching was........omg even thinking about it makes me want to crawl into a corner and breathe loudly chanting "Happy place".
On the bright side?
I can do butterfly again.
On the not-so-bright side?
We did the bar stretch.


Even though Amy did it first, and she was tolding on to my shoulders so hard that it hurt, but it's Amy. I forgive her.
Okay while I was actually holding on to the bar it was fine.
When I had to let go of the bar, it was alright, I was holding on to Amy's shoulders.
Then the master moves my foot over to the side, and my foot of course slides not an inch, but a good 30 cm.
I kind of just fell forward and stopped breathing for a second.
I think I was still in shock.
Because I didn't feel any pain after the first stab of it.
And all I could hear is Amy first laughing, then going "....hey are you okay?"
And I tried to talk, but couldn't. so I just shook my head, and the master told me to get up, even though what he meant was to get my upper body vertical.
I just shook my head again, so he just grabbed my shoulders and FORCED me up.
I swear to god I hope that I left nail marks in his arms.

But yeah. fun stuff.

For once I have no homework to do this weekend.

Peace Out,


Wednesday, November 5, 2008

more questions

Why are you not going for the person you want to go for?
Let's just say that it's complicated. I fear rejection most of all.

Ever kissed a Joe, Kevin, or Nick?
No and I am not planning on it. EVER.

Will you have a boyfriend in 2 months?

most likely not. But there's always that slim chance xD

Have you ever had a boy best friend?

My best friend has ALWAYS been a boy.

Is there a hot boy on your top friends on myspace?

Unless Tanya's a hot boy...then no.

Has a boy ever complimented your hair?

yeah. xD

What are your plans for today?

TKD, MSN and sleep.

Where was your default picture taken?

My roooooooom.

When was the last time you cried?

When I was like 11/12

Are you happy at the moment?

not really

Are you a morning person or a night person?


What are you wearing right now?

Black sweat pants, my kiwi t-shirt

What was the last thing you ate?

potatoes and chicken.

Have you sold any drugs this month?

LOL no.

When was the last time you ran?

Yesterday at TKD.

Who is the last person to send you a message on facebook?


Do you have a tan?

not ANYMORE. goddamn white-ness. came back.

Do you like bubble gum?

LOve it.

Do you drink your soda with a straw?

No I drink mine straight up XD

Look to your left what do you see?


What color is your room?


Do you use chapstick?

yep, especially nowdays

When is your birthday?

July 8th

What is your favorite number?

18 and 7

Do you have a dog?


How many states have you lived in?


Do you dye your hair?


Do you love anyone?

my friends, my family etc.

Do you eat healthy?

I try

How did you get your worst scar?

Surgery when I was about like.....2 xD

Who was the last person you cuddled with?

I don't tend to cuddle, I tend to be used as a pillow.

Do you drink more water or juice?


Are you there for your friends?

Whenever they need me.

How different are you from three years ago?


When's the next time you will see the person you like/love?

Later today :)

What are you doing right now?

answering a question about what I am doing.

Do you think you're old?


Ever talked to someone that was drunk?

hahah yeah at least half my relatives.

What should you be doing right now?

getting dressed

Are you currently frustrated with someone?


What did you do today?

school, ate so much chips it was ridiculous, and you know. stuff.

Currently wanting anything?

ice cream.......

Do you like your hair?


Have you ever broken your arm?

no I have not.

Do you have a friend that starts with the letter D?

not that I can remember

What is on your mind?

Ice cream

What's the last thing you put in your mouth?

LOL SOUNDS SO WRONG. um my water bottle.

Can you play Guitar Hero?

No, I play guitar but I fail at Guitar Hero

Name someone that made you laugh today?


If you could move somewhere else, would you?


Who was the last person you took a picture with?

My lover. Amy <3

What is good about the Jonas Brothers?



Who on your top friends have you slept in the same bed with?

uhhhhhhhhh lol no comment.

Do you miss the way things used to be?


Would you ever live with anyone on your top friends?

yeah, sure.

What was the last thing you laughed really hard about?

um don't even remember, but it was yesterday at TKD.

How long was your last phone call?

a minute or two?

Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you?

probably. who cares?

What's more important to you, good grades or having fun?

both I guess.

Do you listen to your friend's advice when they give it to you?

Yeah, but doesn't mean that I follow it.

Is it hard for you to get a hold of alcohol?

no, it's actually really easy.

If a stranger looked in your closet, what would they think?

"Wow how the hell do they ever find anything in here?"

Ever paid more than a hundred bucks on a pair of jeans?

no xD

Did you sing at all today?

yep Everlong.

Name one thing you do that people always tell you about:

The sarcasm xD

Did you feel awkward at all today?


Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?


Latest you stayed up in the past week? And why?

around 1:30 goddamn civics project.

Do you think that you’re a good person?

I wish I was.

Are any of your friends taller than you?

yes -__-

Do you believe that you can change for someone?

I could, but I never would.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Loves me Not (otherwise known as the writing exercise that went too far)

Watch me run, even though I suck at it, as fast as I can force my legs to go and know that the second I stop I’d drop unconscious.
Or dead.
Because I know the second that I stop, the second I become too weak to take another step, that’s when the thought of you will stab me again and again in the chest.
You’re not here and you’re not stabbing a knife into my heart, but every single time that your words cross my mind, that’s exactly what happens.
As soon as I stop, you flood my every sense, and my usually shitty memory remembers every little insignificant detail about you. Your smile, your laugh, your gorgeous clear blue eyes, the way your hands felt on my waist, and every little conversation, every stupid joke, every comment that we exchanged.
As strong as I thought I was, as reliant on my cynical outlook on the world as I’ve always been, I realized that when you weave your way that far into my affections, my heart is no more resilient than any other teenage girl’s.
I know that it’s stupid, and I know that we’ll never be what secretly I’ve always wished we could be, and I know that I’m better than this.
I really wish that you had the decency to at least give me some notice that you were planning on showing up in my life and changing it forever, for better or for worse. And what hurts the most is that you have no idea.
You have no idea how perfect you are, you have no idea how irrationally infatuated I am with you, and how I fall apart without my daily dose of you.
I never thought I’d meet you, and a part of me is glad that I did.

I give my every apology to the me I used to be, and I know that I can never look her in the face again.

Friday, October 31, 2008


I'll probably update this post later after me and Amy go on our fantasmagoric adventure, but this is just an excuse to post pictures.
I changed the colour of my eyes in Photoshop in the picture on the left, to make them look more like Rilly's natural eye colour
The pic on the right isn't edited at all.
Peace Out,

Monday, October 27, 2008

Got my pink wiiiiiiig.

Alright alright, so yesterday, I got my pink wig.
and in short.
I love it. I really do XD
I kind of look like I've mistaken my ipod for my cell phone, but in reality, I'm just holding my wig straight.
And holding my Ipod XDD

I've gotten some pretty hilarious comments on the pink hair as I've posted that picture as my MSN display.

The most popular being: "OMG IT'S KELLY"
As much as I love Kelly, she doesn't have some kind of copyright on pink hair. XD

"OMGSHHH you look like one of those Euro transvestite pop stars!"

"WHY ARE YOU SO HOT? You make pink hair WORK."

"THAT'S HOT. Your Dp looks like a skinny Russian girl, and I don't tell that to everyone"

"You know, it actually looks good. You should keep it"
(I GAPED when I read this one. Cookies to who knows why)



"Reminds me of that annoying thing from Lazy Town"


and so forth.
I'll post pictures of my full costume/makeup after I finish it and take pictures on Halloween.

Peace Out,


Friday, October 24, 2008

TKD test update. and you know, life in general.

Yet Regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without matters not. 
Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world, they became everything to you.
- A chain letter that Sooah sent to me. 



This is what happened at my TKD belt test yesterday.

Around last period, which is math, i felt like I was going to be sick. Seriously. Had to go to the washroom, walk around and calm down. 
I was so nervous. 

But then I started doing the stupid mixture equations, and was too distracted and frustrated to think about it too much. 
I went home, ate, and felt fine. 

Out TKD teacher told us to come early so we could stretch and warm up and all that stuff. 
So the test, which started at 6 pm, I showed up at 5:30 pm.
And I felt nervous all over again.
And made the mistake of talking to Michael before the test. 
And note to self, that's the worst idea ever. 
I think he might have been attempting to calm me down. didn't work. only threw me into full-blown panic mode. 
So I was working on my 4th pattern, and my failure of a side kick, and I had a teacher all to myself, since nobody of my belt colour had bothered to show up that early. 
and the conversation went something like this:
me: "So, what else do I have to do for the test?"
"Just sparring"
"Craaaaaaaaaap. Who am I sparring?"
"............WHAT?!?!?!?! D:>"

And then he just laughed, and said "It's okay, I'll go easy on you"
As if that helps. 

Fast forward to me hyperventilating in a corner. 
I got the apparently reassuring pat on the shoulder repeatedly from just about everyone, and I of course almost fell over. 
Cause I'm a klutz and was panicking. 

Then Alex showed up with his sister. 
I felt a little bit better, I was so happy to see him considering that the last time had been somewhere in August?

And then Sooah showed up, followed by a mini-mob of my friends. 
And holy shit I felt so much better when I saw them all. 
somewhat more calm. 

I think I was panicking because Amy wasn't there for the first time. She would have slapped some sense into me. 
Thank God for Amy. 
At least she was there in spirit.

And I didn't end up having to spar full-contact. 

Okay I think I'm like going through withdrawal symptoms or something. 
I feel weird and nervous if I don't get my daily dose of...him. 
Not nauseous necessarily, but the kind of stomach clenching nervous that I get right before saying a speech or right before waiting for my heat to be called up in a swim meet. 

But as soon as I'm back, it's all good again. 


Wtf Lenny. wtf. 
stupid stupid stupid. 

And about the quote at the top of this, I just felt like it was appropriate. 
And so true that it's sad. 


Peace Out, 


Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Book cover/politics/ick.

I am bored, more than anything else hahahahaha. 

I feel horrible how my comic is like on hiatus. 
until further notice anyway, 

School is eating up my life, 
and that's just uncool. 
It's been project after project and that's just annoying. 

Here's my media arts book cover for my comic BCM xD
yay for making a school project into a personal one!
Natasha and Sarah take the front cover this time, i'll probably churn out some more once I hit the 20 comic page mark. 
PFFT. as if that would ever happen. 
I started this in like late July, and I have 4 comic done XDDD fail. 

In slightly less whiny news, 

Tories won the election?
Minority government, as was expected .

Unfortunately, that sucks. 

Hell they all suck, 
I support the blue more than I support the rest of the self-righteous political atrocities that Canada calls parties. 

If NDP can to power, I'm seriously consider leaving the country. 
We've had enough bullshit to last us a lifetime Mr Layton. 
Try focusing less on your moustache and more on your morals. 

Hahahaha apparently the Bloc got more votes than the Greens. that makes me laaaaaaugh. and of course, Gilles Duceppe is freaking HILARIOUS. 
he exists for the sole reason of irritating the hit out of the rest of the parties. 
Political rant over. 
I'm being self-righteous and opinionated because I have Civics this semester. It'll all be over soon my friends. 

: D

Peace Out, 


Friday, October 10, 2008


The world hates me. 

My comp won't let me access DA from my home computer. 
Stupid decrepit Windows 98. 
Go die already so I have an excuse to go cry to my parents. 

AND as the cherry on the cake/ice cream/whatever, I managed to forget to send my media project to myself, and I feel like killing someone. 

All I have done is the background, leaving me nothing to do considering the fact that I can't get the pressure sensitivity/pen pressure to work on this iMac. I hate Macs. 

On the other hand it's Amy's birthday today. 
I wish her much love and happiness. Or at least lots of lulz. 

And on a slightly less angry and more depressed note, the band is pretty much in the toilet. 
We ended up in the type of situation everyone promised never to get into. 
I'm probably going to have to end up having to choose sides in an argument that I really don't want to be a part of. 

Fuck teenage drama and it's hormones. 

And I was actually kinda looking forward to being in a band. 

I've been moping around lately and there's like nothing worth reading. AT ALL. 
It seems like I've already been through absolutely everything that's ever been good on the internet. 


But all in all it's been a good day. 
pfft. well. 
I hope it'll turn into a good day at some point. 

Peace Out, 


Thursday, September 25, 2008

news news news

Ok, so.

Nothing really important going on except for the fact that I am going to faaaaaaaaaaaail Civics, considering that I haven't even written my speech on domestic violence, and it's due next Monday D:
This is so not a good start to a new year. And by "start" I mean of course, the fourth/fifth week of school.
I'm working on a three panel mini-mural because....well....I don't like working HUGE. It just makes all the flaws so much more noticable.
The mini mural is mostly to take attention off of the fact that I just might burst out laughing in the middle of my speech.
one of those "HAY. DON'T LOOK AT ME. LOOK AT THE PRETTY PICTURE" type things.
And of course I have to draw something strange and creepy with even creepier undertones.
Peace Out,

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

bla bla bla back.

another unintentional hiatus, and in media arts, I'm blogging instead of Photoshopping since my tablet is a few kilometers away in front of my PC.

WHich is sad.

For me. 

More art to come eventually.


Friday, July 25, 2008

Back after a while.

Yeah so I'm back after a long and unintentional hiatus.

I'm usually on DeviantART so if you need me, you know where to find me.


The picture is one I drew a while back for one of my friends, and it's also where I got my header from.

Saturday, April 5, 2008


Ahaha, from sketch to final cg-ed product.

Just goes to show how much things change before I'm happy with them.

Monday, March 10, 2008

whee high school

I don't see what the big deal is with high school. that's all you ever hear these days, on TV and not. HIGH SCHOOL DOESN'T SUCK.

At least not in my opinion.


Anyways, drew my characters as their high school alter-egos.

It was too much fun.
Far too much fun.

but anyways.

Starting TaeKwonDo today.

I get my ass kicked if I go ,and get my ass kicked by amy if I don't go. Somehow I'm not liking my options.

And this winter weather is making me feel worse and worse.

Freaking perfect.

Peace out,


Friday, March 7, 2008

New month, new post, same old, same old.

Hehe just finished an art trade with my dear friend vanessa because she rocks.

she just does, don't question it.

Charlie is her character.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Me? Oh well yes. Yes it is.

Might as well write a brief synopsis of myself for the benefit of everyone.

And besides, I like talking about myself.

There's no topic that I know more about.


My name's Olena.

I'm 14 years old, and will be 15 on the 8th of July this year.

I am Ukrainain by heritage. I live in Canada.

I speak (in order of fluency): English, Russian, Ukrainian, French (ugh sort of) and am learning German.

Drawing, Writing, and reading are probably my reasons for living. heh. and the rest of my time I spend swimming (started competatively this year), sleeping and on the internet.

I do have a social life, but this holds no importance whatsoever in the above mentioned breakdown of my time.

I am in love with two bands.

Tokio Hotel and Evanescence.

Don't ask me to pick a favourite or I'll have seizure. No joke.

I listen to Rock.

and with the exception of Rap, just about everything else.

I refuse to do things halfway.

If I start something, I'll finish it.

I have a knack for pushing myself to my physical limits.

I plain out refuse to be the worst at anything. My ego just can't take that 8D

I am fairly easy to get along with.

You just have to remember that I have my own opinions, and your opinion will never change mine.

Also, you don't call me a bitch unless you want to find out the true meaning of the word.

Peace out :D


Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Well hay now.

Hi Guys, it's me and I'm back to update on the going ons (or lack therof) in my teenage life.

I'm learning German from an online course and it's going pretty bad T-T

But being my odd masochistic self, I will force myself to finish something once I've started.

In other news, this time art related, I have been inspired.

I must go collect myself some referance photos because my grasp of anatomy is pretty lame when it comes to stuff like this.

I really wish I could draw people realistically from time to time. It's just so HARD.

Peace out,

Thursday, February 7, 2008

ahaha new semester and I think life is going to be painful from here on out T-T..

Gym = Hell.

Everything hurts. so freaking much.

But here's a painting that I did in two hours in photoshop.
It's really nothing much, but I'm practicing okay? Digital painting isn't as easy as it looks.....
And it doesn't look very easy...

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

whee. Finally got myself one of them blogs.

Hello everyone :D

I'm back to infect the internet from yet another account :D

Find me on because I'm there more often than not.