Saturday, February 28, 2009


Ten things you wish you could say to ten different people right now:

1. I wish I saw more of you. Going to different schools still doesn't sit well with me. You're my best friend and you always will be.
2. You're the kind of friend that I imagine myself growing old and wrinkly with and trying to force our respective offspring to be friends too. You are too cute.
3. I effing love you man. If i was a man I'd make you my girlfriend. For serious. You make every day of my life.
4. So, you love me more now that I've taken your advice? You're a remarkable bitch that pretty much taught me how people should never be treated.
5. You've forced my outlook on life to shift to pessimistically optimistic, and I probably have you to thank for feeding my endlessly good mood nowadays.
6. You really are a piece of work. You're obnoxious and in-your-face and you seem to dislike me for existing. Get a clue, live your life, and let people live theirs. I don't live to make you or your ideals happy.
7. I am in love with you. Took me long enough to recognize it. I love your smile, your eyes, the way you say my name, your laugh, your sense of humour, and everything about you. Just being around you is enough to make me grin like an idiot, and you occupy my every waking thought. I want to feel your arms around me again.
8. You annoy the hell out of me sometimes. You're not cute, you're not innocent, and nobody's buying it.
9. I'm sorry that you think I seem aloof nowadays. I just like you better in real life than on MSN.
10. You infuriate me to no end. The world just seems to bow to make way for your needs and wants. The real world doesn't work that way and you're not going to get what you want every flipping time. Get. Over. Yourself.

NINE things about yourself:

1. I am in some kind of physical pain most of the time
2. I don't tend to make eye contact when I'm talking to someone for fear of coming off as creepy
3. I am incapable of writing romance.
4. I love to read. I love books. seriously.
5. I love glasses on people. I don't like wearing mine because they make me look like more of a geek than I already am.
6. I know the lyrics to all 500 or so songs on my ipod. English or not.
7. If you wake me up in the middle of the night and start talking to me, if I manage a coherant answer it'll probably be in Russian.
8. Whenever I feel nauseous I go inside my bathroom and sit on the floor. it makes me feel better.
9. I hug myself when I'm falling asleep because I'm constantly cold.

EIGHT ways to win your heart:

1. Love me
2. Make me laugh
3. Hug me from behind.
4. Talk to me and make me think.
5. Smile
6. Take an interest in the things I do
7. Speak more than one language
8. Be taller than me.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

1. Mr. Sparkle
2. TKD
3. Funny moments that happened in the not so distant past
4. Sleep
5. Boredom
6. I hate the cold.
7. Swimming.

SIX things you do before you go to bed:

1. Brush teeth
2. Shower
3. Change
4. Turn off computer
5. Set alarm clock
6. Do crunches

FIVE people who mean a lot.

1. Mr. Sparkle
2. Amy
3. Alex/Eggplant
4. Sara/Stacey/Olivia/Sooah
5. Pat/everyone else.

FOUR things you're wearing right now.
1. Blue and black striped fleece pyjama pants
2. an oversixed gray shirt with two mice kissing
3. a navy sweater
4. purple ballet flats

THREE songs that fit your life perfectly and lyrics explaining why.

1. "Broken Heart"- Motion City Soundtrack: But I get carried away with every day and every fantasy. The deeper the wound, the harder I'll swoon and wish that that was me. So much to say, but no words to convey the loneliness building with each passing day. But I'm getting used to it, you have to get used to it.
2. "I Bruise Easily" - Natasha Bedingfield: But if I never take this leap of faith I'll never knowSo I'm learning to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow
3. "1000 Oceans" - Tokio Hotel: And one day we'll look back with no regrets 1000 Oceans wide 1000 Endless years have died 1000 Oceans wide 1000 Stars are passing by... Passing by Please don't drift away from me

TWO things you want to do before you die:

1. Be a part or something amazing
2. Kiss underwater

ONE confession:

1. I'm a sap.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Rape survival class

MMkay so yesterday at TKD, it was pretty much an all-girl's class. (well, not counting the instructors). And literally, it turned from an easy cardio class into self-defense, into a "How to avoid Rape and in case the inevitable happens, how to beat their ass into last week to distract them sufficiently and run away".

And somehow, even with all the tips, I'm still pretty sure that if a 300 lb. man jumps me in an abandoned alleyway, I. Am. Doomed.
There's just no way a teenage girl can fight off a full grown man, not unless he's an idiot and really slow.
And you have the element of surprise on your side.

Not that I'm not going to try to do as much damage as possible if that ever does happen to me. as nasty as some of the suggestions are, and I think I may be a pacifist at heart. I can't stand the thought of inflicting specific types of pain onto other people.

Amy went TKD on my throat, and now it hurts when I bend it at certain angles. I didn't think it was possible to do that to your throat, but I guess it is.

My legs are so bruised I'll probably never be able to wear shorts in public again. seriously.

ROPSSAA was also yesterday, and HOLY SHIT IT WAS SO MUCH FUN.
We did great as a school, and laughed so hard and took so many pictures that out Fbook group is swamped.
I came first in both my heats, by a significant amount of time.
Finished the day with a record of 3 personal bests, and CUT 13 SECONDS OFF OF MY 100M FREESTYLE.
I was so happy. I can barely remember the last thing that made me that happy. Actually, I can. With scary accuracy and clarity.

Here comes my little emo moment.

k I'm done.

Peace Out,


Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Girl Survey


1. Do you burp in front of guys?
- I don't tend to burp in front of anyone, regardless of gender LOL

2. Whats your favorite girl magazine?
- I don't have one

3. Do you show affection in public?
- I hug my friends hello and goodbye? Does that count?

4. Do you ever cry during a romantic movie?
- no. usually I'm covering my face going "UGH IS IT OVER YET WTF THIS IS SO CHEESY GAHHH"

5. How old were you when you first shaved your legs?
- LOL I actually have no idea. grade 6-ish?

6. Can you pull off red lipstick?
- I never actually tried.

7. Dare to share your bra size?
- ....I feel like internet predator bait saying this, but whatever. 36C

8. Ever been HOTTIE HUNTING?
- HAHAHAHAHA I've been hanging out at the mall with friends and it turned into Hottie Hunting.

9. Do you think lip gloss is the best?
- um. no. actually.

10. Ever use the term- EYE CANDY?
- not seriously. I'd sooner use "dreamboat"

11. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
- without eating breakfast, about 15 minutes.

12. Describe yourself in five words.
- strange sarcastic green teenager female

13. Is pink the best color in the world?
- ugh god no. never.

14 When did you last wear a little black dress?
- um.... never?

15. Do you often wish there was something you could change?
- uh. My legs. for sure.

16. Do you like dressing up?
- yeah, it's fun. At least it can be. Not when you have no time and have to attempt to look great under pressure. that's not so fun.

17. Do you own a really nice piece of jewelry?
- Yeah. just about every piece of jewelry I own used to be my grandmother's.

18. Did you ever want to be an actress or model?
- ummm. I could probably be a model if I stopped eating. but I never actually wanted to be either one.

19. Ever consider a sex change?

20. Whats the best part about being a girl?
- being underestimated at TKD. It is your fault that I am beating the shit out of you. Leave your 19th century mentality behind k thnx.

21. Do you straighten your hair everyday?
- LOL no. I don't need to. my hair is stick straight regardless of what I do to it.

22. Jeans or Skirt?

23. Do you wear clothes, shoes, jewelry that's uncomfortable?
- Um no. not usually.

24. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
- hahahahah hell no. Maybe an hour or so.

25. Would you leave the house without makeup on?
- sure. if I was lazy enough.

26. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping?
- depends for what. but on average like a 5.

27. Are you spoiled?
- no. xD My parents raised me right.

28. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite shows?
- no, not usually.

29. Do you yell alot?
- not in normal conversation. Unless we're in the caf. But they make me yell at TKD. and now it's habit.

30. Do you wear sweatpants or pajamas to school or work?
- Nope. I like my pjs to much, and I own one pair of paint splattered sweatpants that my mother would never let me out with in public.

31. Do you like skater boys?
- Not really. bunch of posers imo. But if he started skating I wouldn't care :]

32. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy?
- I think that's what I'm going to do this summer LOL.

33. Gold or silver?
- Either/or. but not together.

34. Do you like wearing dresses?
- not really. make me feel uncomfortable most of the time.

35. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems?
- I draw a lot of mushy love drawings. does that count?

36. On a scale of 1-10, how much do guys confuse you?
- It fluctuates. I'd say half & Half. 5.

37. What makeup could you not live w/ out?
- concealer.

38. Do you fall in love easily?
- no. It takes me a long time and usually i don't even realize it before it's too late. It takes too long to get over someone as well.

39. Do you think you have the best friends ever?
- DUH.

40. What color is your bra?
- that I'm wearing now? black.

41. Do you ever lie about your age?
- I don't need to. Nobody guesses it right the first time around anyways. "So you're 19 right?" "Sure let's go with that :] "

42. Do you ever lie about your weight?
- I don't remember the last time I was asked, so I guess not.

43. Do you prefer sensitive or tough guys?
- um. can I have a mixture of both? I want a guy that can talk openly and hug me for no reason but fight my battles for me and kick copious amounts of ass.

44. Do you prefer blonde or dark haired guys?
- dark haired. medium-to-dark anyways.

45. Are you currently single?
- yes I am

46. How many things in your past do you regret?
- TONS. LOL. But you live and you learn right?

47. Do you have a best friend?
- Yeahh. he's been there ever since forever.

48. Do you know what you want to be when you grow up?
- No. clue.

49. Have you ever kissed two people in one night?
- I've never kissed two people EVER.

50. Who was the last person you hugged?

51. Have you ever thought about having plastic surgery?
- nope.

52. Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't have them?
- yep.

53. Do you like your life?
- It could be a hell of a lot worse that's all I'm saying.

54. Do you own anything from Hollister?
- no.

55. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
- LOL NO. what boyfriend?

56. Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?
- yes. not really a friend anymore.

57. Did you forgive them?
- yeah.

58. Do you have more friends that are girls or guys?
- It's about equal.

59. How long have you had facebook?
- 2 years or so?

60. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
- Nope. I gave one a black eye though.

61. Has anyone close to you ever passed away?
- no. I hope they don't.

62. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
- yeah. I have.

63. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?

64. Do you believe once a cheater, always a cheater?
- no. people change.

65. What color are your underwear?
- blue.

66. What is your screen name?
- loveondeathswings

67. Do you ever wish you were a man?
- sometimes yeah. to finally be taken seriously.

Monday, February 9, 2009

blu blu blu

Have you told a boy today that you loved them?

Is there anything written on your hand right now? If so, what?
surprisingly there isn't. usually it's numbers and things I need to remember.

What's the last test you failed?
um. Grade 9 biology unit test?

What are you listening to?
Heut Ist Mein Tag - Blumchen

What's the most comical thing that has happened today?
hmmm. Art class :D

What is something you've given to someone today?
A sheet of lined paper.

Who was your last text from and what does it say?
Eggplant- "I'm in a pickle"

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
I have no idea. I think it may have been my dad's at one point in time.

When was the last time you had butterflies in your tummy?
Friday :)<3have>

Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you?
um. I don't think so.

Are you waiting for something?
yes yes yes. TKD

When's the last time you said you were fine, but really weren't?
umm. probably when I was asked "Are you okay you look like you're going to pass out?" and I totally was. but i didn't say so.

Have you ever been called heartless?
A bitch, yes. heartless, nope.

Have you ever loved someone who didn't love you back?
I've liked people who didn't like me back. Now I don't know.

Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and you're sure they won't tell?
I have several : D

Has anyone ever told you they love you?
Sure. My friends, my parents. relatives.

When was the last time you cried?
When i was like..........11?

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
`haha yes and I like her just the same.. maybe less

What happened at 9:00 am today?
Art class?

What was the last thing you bought?
Pasta from the caf.

Do you laugh a lot?
Yeah it's probably not healthy.

Do you sleep a lot?
If I ever get the chance to

Whats the first thing you did when you woke up this morning?
Well I got up at 5:30. I woke up at around 7 am LOL.

What were you doing at ten last night?
Getting ready to go to sleep.

If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?

Do you enjoy late night msn conversations?

Greatly. I should cut down on them.

Will you be sleeping alone tonight?

What do you currently hear?
Music. Whoa Oh - Forever the Sickest Kids

Do you consider yourself lucky?
LOL no.

Have you ever found yourself worrying about commitment?

Have you ever confessed your feelings to a crush?
no no no no no. I'm far too much of a wimp for that.

Last place you hugged someone?

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Thinking of Friday. :D

Do you want someone you can't have?
I don't see why I can't. but yeah. pretty much.

Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you?
he's one of my biffles.

Is someone on your mind right now?
yes. : D

Were you mad about the way you woke up this morning?