Saturday, November 22, 2008

another stupid quiz XDD

1. Male Friend: Alex
2. Female Friend: I have many
3. Memory: Tokio Hotel concert, yesterday, actually I have a lot.

1. Time of day: the morning
2. Day of the week: monday
3. Food: eggplant (no offence paul)
4. Memory: hmmm what was it, a few days before grade 10 started?

1. Person you saw: my dad
2. Talked to on the phone: my dad
3. Text: Nick
4. Messaged over MySpace? Eggplant

1. What are you doing right now? answering this and talking on MSN, as well as drawing a picture!
2. Wearing? sweatpants, black turtleneck, and a sweater.
3. Better than yesterday? NO FREAKING WAY. Yesterday was EPICCCCCC.
4. Did you see the person you like? Not today.
5. What’s the weather? cold and sunny-ish.

1. Is: sunday
2. Got any plans? nope
3. Dislikes about tomorrow: uhm the next day is school

1. Number: 7 and 18.
2. Song: (as of right now) Fell in Love without you- Motion City Soundtrack
3. Season: summer to fall
4. Cartoon: avatar the last airbender.

1. Missing someone: nope. I've had my fill.
2. Mood: content
3. Wanting: chocolate.
4. Listening to: Sweet Religion: Imogen Heap

True or False
I am a morning person: F
I am an only child: F
I am currently in my PJ’s: F
I am currently suffering from a broken heart: F
I currently regret something that I have done: F
I curse frequently: T
I enjoy country music: rarely
I enjoy hip hop: depends. apparently DBSK is hip hop. and I mildly enjoy their music.
I enjoy techno/trance: T
I enjoy talking on the phone: depends with who
I have a hidden talent: LOL I'm not sure it counts as a talent.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal: uhm....heheheheheheh I wouldn't say ashamed.... just mortified.
I have all my grandparents: T
I have at least one brother and/or sister: T
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor: T
I have changed a diaper: F
I have changed a lot over the past year: T
I have done something illegal: T
I have had major/minor surgery: T
I have had my hair cut within the last 2 months: F
I have had the cops called on me: F
Single or Taken: single and how is this a true & false question?
Eye color: brown
Hair: brown
Height: 172 cm.
Righty or lefty: righty
Can you make a dollar in change right now? if i can find my wallet, then I probably could.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

(the potential to be) the greatest day ever

Here's a random screencap of Alex's and mine webcast type thing that we tend to do in media arts (I typed math there at first and I'm not sure why. I must be tired)

Yesterday was like the greatest day in the past month.
First of all the swim meet was yesterday, my school was hosting, so we were on home turf. And had the advantage. My god it was crazy
I did 5 events. I'm insane.
- 200m Medley Relay (swam freestyle)
- 50m Freestyle (43 seconds -_-) 
- 50m Butterfly (ABSOLUTE FAIL. Not even telling you my time for this)
- 200m Freestyle Relay (one of our worst times as of yet, but I blame the niners)
- 100m Freestyle

For my 100m Freestyle, I was SO HAPPY. 
It was my last event, and I felt kind of sick, and I was focused more on finishing it, not on actually winning.
My start was good, so I was proud of myself, and I started off at warm-up speed, just kind in a state of nirvana, since this is my favourite event.
on the way back to the wall, after the first 25m I noticed that I was ahead of two people, so I'm like, "Okay, you know what, I'm going to try".
I managed to do okay on my first two flip turns, and then for my last one, IT WAS AMAZING. For me anyways. My flip turns have always been more like an act of dumb luck than actual skill.
but for my last 25m, I like SHOT off of the wall. 
and passed two people last second and made it in 3rd place!!
Out of the 8 people that were in my heat. 

I went from a 1:42 to a 1:37!!!


And TKD was easy, since it snowed for the first time yesterday, i guess most people didn't bother to show up. 
There were a grand total of five of us. 
And we did like.....half a pyramid not even, and we sparred for the rest of the day. I guess that was fun, except for the last fight wasn't even a fight, I lost so badly D:>

And I get the feeling that he wasn't even trying. 
which is just depressing. 

So I can still talk even though I spent most of yesterday yelling,
And I am not sore! Only 3 new bruises!

Hooray :)

Peace Out,


Monday, November 17, 2008

BCM not quite update.

Halloween costumes for Mai, Alex, Natasha, Mo and Katie.
Natasha in a bathing suit (sans swim cap xDD), Sarah looking cuter than usual, Mo from the back, some random Alex expressions, the second one looking girlier and far too annoyed for his personality. 
Oh how I love you Alex~~ Impossible to pronounce last name and all. 
Here's to more BCM doodles while my actual comic goes not updated. 
And that's just depressing to everyone, especially me. Seeing as I do not have much of a following regarding this comic, that's alright. 
I have realized that I like drawing legs. 
And that just sounds creepy no matter how I word it. 

I feel kind of sick, in a nauseous kind of way, and I occasionally feel a stabbing pain as though someone gouged a knife into my ribs. 
And trust me, that is not fun. 
At all. 

On the bright side, TKD today!
All I have to do is suffer through school for a bit, and everything will be right again. 
Painful, but right. 
Apparently all of this week we're focusing on flexibility. *cries in a corner* Dude that is so not fun. AT ALL .

Yesterday was somewhat of an off day for me, all things considered. 
I got to sleep in as long as I wanted, and I was all warm and cozy and nice, but I inevitably woke up.
And my mom tells me that my grandpa got out of the hospital yesterday, and apparently, he's been there for the past month. 
You have no idea how pissed I was. 
I was angry at the whole world and everyone who inhabits it, decided that I was a pretty shitty human being and the like, and pretty much stayed an angsty emo kid all day. 
and as Stacey so aptly said, "Lenna wth is up with you?"

And to tell you the truth, I don't know. 
More people know about *ahem* ;D (using Stacey's code name here) than i would have initially liked, and I don't think Am's gonna let me forget about it any time soon ;A;

I am updating my blog in media arts instead of actually working on a ghey Mardi Gras poster that the teacher wants us yo do if we're done. 
If it's not being marked, i won't be doing it >.<


so yeah. 
Hope I arrive alive enough to blog tomorrow,

Peace Out,


Sunday, November 16, 2008

quiz time. personality.

Some doodles I did at TKD a few weeks back, not very successful because EVERYONE KEPT MOVING.
Here's a personality quiz to keep you guys occupied.

Instructions: Put an 'x' in the box next to the statements you agree with.
[x] I have A LOT of friends.
[ ] I go to parties often.
[x] I love to talk.
[x (I guess so)] I am generally happy
[ ] I go out more often than I stay home.
[x] People sometimes call me crazy.
[ ] my favourite past times include shopping, talking on the phone or computer and hanging out with friends.
[x] I actually like going to school.
[ ] I wish I was famous!
[x] I love meeting new people.
Total: 6

[ ] I don't like school or social gatherings.
[ ] I never go to dances, parties, etc.
[ ] I don't have that many friends, only a few close ones.
[x] People have said I'm shy.
[ ] I don't talk a lot.
[x] I like to sit in my room alone all day. (I don't LIKE to, but I end up doing so anyway)
[x] My favourite pasttimes include going on the computer, reading and sleeping.
[x] I have never had a boyfriend. (freaking hell this quiz is depressing)
[x] I wear somewhat "conservative" clothing, I don't follow trends.
[ ] I don't have more than one of these: MSN, AIM, Xanga, Myspace.
Total: 5

[x] I like to wear all black.
[ ] I don't have many friends, in fact, I don't really like people.
[ ] I talk behind people's backs.
[ ] I think about suicide/death a lot.
[ ] I listen to hardcore punk rock and nothing else.
[x] I wish people would just leave me alone! (sometimes)
[ ] I don't get along with my family.
[ ] I rather die than be friends with a cheerleader or someone popular.
[ ] I have had a lot of fights with people this year.
[ ] People don't really want to be my friend.
Total: 2

[x] I have good friends that I can share anything with.
[ ] People come up to me all the time, wanting to be my friend.
[ ] I guess you could call me popular.
[ ] I do my homework and always study for tests.
[ ] I don't swear. (nope, I cuss like a sailor occasionally)
[ ] I never break the law.
[x] I don't smoke, drink, or do drugs.
[x] I love people, animals and nature.
[x] I think the world would be a much better place if everyone was just nice to each other! (not exactly, but close enough)
[ ] I am NOT a hater. (I hate Disney channel whores)
Total: 4

[x] I study REALLY hard for tests.
[x] My grades are very important to me, not just my parents.
[x] I go to school to LEARN, not socialize with my friends.
[x] I am focused on what I need to do.
[x] I don't party, drink/smoke, or act wild with friends.
[ ] I don't seem to laugh very often.
[x] People tell me I should be more calm sometimes and worry less.
[x]I am stressed out often.
[ ] I already know what I wanna be in the future, and how I'm gonna get there.
[ ] I have a job.
Total: 7

Fun/laid back
[x] I like to have fun with my friends!
[ ] I don't worry too much.
[ ] I never get stressed.
[x] Stuff seems to come easy to me.
[x] My life is just chill.
[ ] If something goes wrong, I don't freak out, I just handle it in a calm way.
[x] People come to me for advice.
[x] I have a lot of friends because I know how to have a good time!
[x] I consider myself very social.
[x] Life is short, live it to the fullest!
Total: 7

[ ] I laugh ALL the time.
[] I ALWAYS cry when I laugh hard!
[x] My friends always come to me when they need to be cheered up.
[x] I have a lot of jokes to tell.
[x] I like watching comedies and funny TV shows.
[x] A lot of people have told me that I am funny.
[x] With me, you will always have a good laugh!
[X] A sense of humor is most important in a guy.
[x]I don't cry often.
[ ] I am an optimist.
Total: 7

[ ] I cry a lot.
[x] I listen to sad music mostly.
[ ] My friends always ask me 'what's wrong'.
[x] I think people don't understand me.
[x] I seem to spend a lot of time alone.
[ ] I don't have a boyfriend, a best friend, or any close family members.
[ ] I take some sort of medication for depression.
[ ] I never seem to have fun anymore.
[ ] I am HIGHLY sensitive.
[ ] Sometimes, I wish I could die.
Total: 3

The category with the most x's is your most dominant personality trait . If you have a tie between two or more, that's great! You have different sides to your personality.Now post your personality(s) here:I am:

Fun/Laid Back
Peace Out,

Friday, November 14, 2008


Well the media arts project is over, so like yaaaaaaaaaaaay?


I thought I'd drop dead before I got to the weekend. 
So I just finished writing the math test, and I think I did okay.  
In a strange "I probably failed regardless of the fact that I tried to study" type of way. I'm joking of course, I doubt I'd actually fail, considering how much of a nerd I really am. 
Yesterday, my parents dropped me off at TKD early. so I took my math review sheets with me to check if I actually know anything.
Most of the adults were there yesterday, and although I knew they meant well, they were no help at all when it came to multi-stage factoring.
Master Park of course insisted that he could do this in his sleep, and well lucky him. 
Doesn't he feel special D:<
And my god, I mean, I knew CJ was a stunt person for a while, but she has her own demo reel on youtube!

And that's like wow.

I was lying on my stomach for like a good half hour, got stepped on twice, made someone trip, stabbed myself with my pencil accidentally, and threw my pencil at Jun. But hey, he stepped on me. 
He was so asking for it.

We finished class a few minutes early, so I was talking to Jun and Sinthu about well random crap as per usual.  

In other news,
My abstract painting looks horrible, but I guess that it's abstract and that's what counts.
We're not even allowed to do something like "USE COLOUR TO MAKE AN AWESOME-TASTIC ACRYLIC PAINTING ABOUT YOU FEEL ABOUT CHEESE". It has to be an abstract representation of something
So I'm abstracting a surrealism-type marker drawing that I made a few weeks ago.

I missed the deadline for our juried art show at school because I'm a lazy bum..
oh well. 
There's always next year?

Happy (slightly belated) Birthday Olivia~!

Peace Out,


Sunday, November 9, 2008


hahahahah you'd think that I would spend more time talking about TKD when it's pretty much taken over my life lately.
So lately Wednesdays and Fridays are hell on earth.
Death by Cardio
Whatever you'd like to call it really.

This one kid in my class, (not mentioning names in case they decide to drop by my blog) MY GOD HE IS DRIVING ME UP THE WALL WITH HIS "COOLER THAN THOU" ATTITUDE.
but he so got what was coming to him this Wednesday I think it was? It might have been last week. But that made my life. seriously.

After this Friday we did so many squats that I felt my knees give out. It made me feel old.

And when you feel 60 years old when you're a teenager, that can never lead to any good.

I want to upload this epically awesome video that me and Alex made in Media arts (more like a webcast really) but Blogger won't let me, and that makes me sad XD
But on the bright side, the fact that the Imac monitor has a built in webcam, that is so epic awesome on so many levels. So my violent hate for macs has become somewhat less violent.

I am officially terrified of stretching.
Friday's stretching was........omg even thinking about it makes me want to crawl into a corner and breathe loudly chanting "Happy place".
On the bright side?
I can do butterfly again.
On the not-so-bright side?
We did the bar stretch.


Even though Amy did it first, and she was tolding on to my shoulders so hard that it hurt, but it's Amy. I forgive her.
Okay while I was actually holding on to the bar it was fine.
When I had to let go of the bar, it was alright, I was holding on to Amy's shoulders.
Then the master moves my foot over to the side, and my foot of course slides not an inch, but a good 30 cm.
I kind of just fell forward and stopped breathing for a second.
I think I was still in shock.
Because I didn't feel any pain after the first stab of it.
And all I could hear is Amy first laughing, then going "....hey are you okay?"
And I tried to talk, but couldn't. so I just shook my head, and the master told me to get up, even though what he meant was to get my upper body vertical.
I just shook my head again, so he just grabbed my shoulders and FORCED me up.
I swear to god I hope that I left nail marks in his arms.

But yeah. fun stuff.

For once I have no homework to do this weekend.

Peace Out,


Wednesday, November 5, 2008

more questions

Why are you not going for the person you want to go for?
Let's just say that it's complicated. I fear rejection most of all.

Ever kissed a Joe, Kevin, or Nick?
No and I am not planning on it. EVER.

Will you have a boyfriend in 2 months?

most likely not. But there's always that slim chance xD

Have you ever had a boy best friend?

My best friend has ALWAYS been a boy.

Is there a hot boy on your top friends on myspace?

Unless Tanya's a hot boy...then no.

Has a boy ever complimented your hair?

yeah. xD

What are your plans for today?

TKD, MSN and sleep.

Where was your default picture taken?

My roooooooom.

When was the last time you cried?

When I was like 11/12

Are you happy at the moment?

not really

Are you a morning person or a night person?


What are you wearing right now?

Black sweat pants, my kiwi t-shirt

What was the last thing you ate?

potatoes and chicken.

Have you sold any drugs this month?

LOL no.

When was the last time you ran?

Yesterday at TKD.

Who is the last person to send you a message on facebook?


Do you have a tan?

not ANYMORE. goddamn white-ness. came back.

Do you like bubble gum?

LOve it.

Do you drink your soda with a straw?

No I drink mine straight up XD

Look to your left what do you see?


What color is your room?


Do you use chapstick?

yep, especially nowdays

When is your birthday?

July 8th

What is your favorite number?

18 and 7

Do you have a dog?


How many states have you lived in?


Do you dye your hair?


Do you love anyone?

my friends, my family etc.

Do you eat healthy?

I try

How did you get your worst scar?

Surgery when I was about like.....2 xD

Who was the last person you cuddled with?

I don't tend to cuddle, I tend to be used as a pillow.

Do you drink more water or juice?


Are you there for your friends?

Whenever they need me.

How different are you from three years ago?


When's the next time you will see the person you like/love?

Later today :)

What are you doing right now?

answering a question about what I am doing.

Do you think you're old?


Ever talked to someone that was drunk?

hahah yeah at least half my relatives.

What should you be doing right now?

getting dressed

Are you currently frustrated with someone?


What did you do today?

school, ate so much chips it was ridiculous, and you know. stuff.

Currently wanting anything?

ice cream.......

Do you like your hair?


Have you ever broken your arm?

no I have not.

Do you have a friend that starts with the letter D?

not that I can remember

What is on your mind?

Ice cream

What's the last thing you put in your mouth?

LOL SOUNDS SO WRONG. um my water bottle.

Can you play Guitar Hero?

No, I play guitar but I fail at Guitar Hero

Name someone that made you laugh today?


If you could move somewhere else, would you?


Who was the last person you took a picture with?

My lover. Amy <3

What is good about the Jonas Brothers?



Who on your top friends have you slept in the same bed with?

uhhhhhhhhh lol no comment.

Do you miss the way things used to be?


Would you ever live with anyone on your top friends?

yeah, sure.

What was the last thing you laughed really hard about?

um don't even remember, but it was yesterday at TKD.

How long was your last phone call?

a minute or two?

Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you?

probably. who cares?

What's more important to you, good grades or having fun?

both I guess.

Do you listen to your friend's advice when they give it to you?

Yeah, but doesn't mean that I follow it.

Is it hard for you to get a hold of alcohol?

no, it's actually really easy.

If a stranger looked in your closet, what would they think?

"Wow how the hell do they ever find anything in here?"

Ever paid more than a hundred bucks on a pair of jeans?

no xD

Did you sing at all today?

yep Everlong.

Name one thing you do that people always tell you about:

The sarcasm xD

Did you feel awkward at all today?


Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?


Latest you stayed up in the past week? And why?

around 1:30 goddamn civics project.

Do you think that you’re a good person?

I wish I was.

Are any of your friends taller than you?

yes -__-

Do you believe that you can change for someone?

I could, but I never would.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Loves me Not (otherwise known as the writing exercise that went too far)

Watch me run, even though I suck at it, as fast as I can force my legs to go and know that the second I stop I’d drop unconscious.
Or dead.
Because I know the second that I stop, the second I become too weak to take another step, that’s when the thought of you will stab me again and again in the chest.
You’re not here and you’re not stabbing a knife into my heart, but every single time that your words cross my mind, that’s exactly what happens.
As soon as I stop, you flood my every sense, and my usually shitty memory remembers every little insignificant detail about you. Your smile, your laugh, your gorgeous clear blue eyes, the way your hands felt on my waist, and every little conversation, every stupid joke, every comment that we exchanged.
As strong as I thought I was, as reliant on my cynical outlook on the world as I’ve always been, I realized that when you weave your way that far into my affections, my heart is no more resilient than any other teenage girl’s.
I know that it’s stupid, and I know that we’ll never be what secretly I’ve always wished we could be, and I know that I’m better than this.
I really wish that you had the decency to at least give me some notice that you were planning on showing up in my life and changing it forever, for better or for worse. And what hurts the most is that you have no idea.
You have no idea how perfect you are, you have no idea how irrationally infatuated I am with you, and how I fall apart without my daily dose of you.
I never thought I’d meet you, and a part of me is glad that I did.

I give my every apology to the me I used to be, and I know that I can never look her in the face again.